some days everything the kids do frustrates me...i know my patience is wearing thin, the day is coming to a close, but bedtime couldn't be soon enough and i try to to remind myself that i need a little more patience, a little more grace, a little more love in my words...but ahhhh!! sometimes i feel like screaming and some days my volume creeps up...but how can i teach them about self control when some days i obviously haven't quite learned this lesson. the never ending arguing and whining is just about enough to drive me crazy. i pray for patience, wisdom, grace, love, compassion and anything else that will help me get to the end of the day.
today was one of those days. ella was tired. everything and anything brought about the dramatic flow of tears. i was a little more on edge today. i was frustrated and feeling like a complete failure as a mom. out of nowhere i tried a little something different. i had wisdom not of myself. i had grace and compassion for a frustrated little girl. my prayers were answered in such an obvious way. God gave me the patience and compassion to hear a little heart out and that was all she needed. she needed to be heard. we talked and hugged and everything wasn't perfect but God's presence was there.
i sat here looking for a picture to throw in and i looked at these little faces and my heart swelled.
these guys are my heart, my love, my joy...
tomorrow is a new day and i'm trusting God to equip me with what i need to raise these little ones that He has entrusted to me.