so it has been a little while and life continues to be busy, but my heart stopped and broke a couple of weeks ago and i have been stuck in a limbo with such a heavy weight on my shoulders. our sweet Yoshi girl was really sick and we had to put her to sleep. i held her as she took her last breath and tried with all of my heart to push away her fear and pour my love over her, but a piece of my heart died that day with her.
a couple of weeks before she passed away we had all been out in the backyard working in the yard and we took a couple of family pics just because and i am so thankful we did. they remind me of how our life was with her. she always wanted to be in the mix with us. she was happy just leaning against a leg or putting a paw on one of our feet. these are some of my favorite pictures with her.
everyone tells me that time will heal my broken heart and that it will get easier, but i still hear the click of her nails walking through the house and her sighs as i lay awake at night.
my first thought when i get home and walk through the door is of my sweet girl and then the silence reminds me that she isn't there. i can still smell her stinky breath.
when i close my eyes i see her gentle eyes.
she loved us well. i wish i had one day to give her all the love that she deserved.
she was our sweet girl.